Reminder: Due to the highly sensitive nature of the post, all names involved shall be posted in its' acronym form. So stop whining!

Whining:
So, you guys might be wondering, where the fuck is the last 2 seasons? To answer your morbid question, it's in my previous blogs, and no, I am not going to give the url. So, if you guys have problems understanding the current situation, just fuck off! I write what I want, and I want what I write! What's that, Freud, I have issues? Doesn't everyone?

Season Recap:
I fell in love with Ay08. That's right, she is the first person that I fell in love with. And I hate myself when I am in love, so vulnerable and so....let's just say that the me now would beat the living shit out of the me in love. Its nauseating. Unfortunately, Ay08 already has a boyfriend. So what a smart intellectual person like me do? It's simple, I push on, and obviously, it ended up in a heart breaking situation for me. The trip to Dublin was the biggest mistake of my life. I wasn't thinking with my head, I was thinking with my heart, and it ended up fucking my life over.

Situation:
Ay08 went back to Malaysia for a while, living me in shambles. Even after the rejection, I am still in love with her. Why? It doesn't matter at this point. I miss her badly, and I felt like calling her everyday, but thank God, I didn't do it. So, basically, she is enjoying her lovely time in Malaysia with her boyfirend while I rot here in this hell hole. Ain't life a bitch?

Justification:
Since I am still adamant being in love with her, I have come up with a plan to win her over. Most of you guys would go like "WTF is this loser thinking? Be a gentleman and move on!", and to this people I send the humble message of "Fuck off!". I have empirical proof( which shan't be disclosed due to privacy reasons) that Ay08 is in love with me. I believe this, and my believe shall not waiver until it comes true, or until I am proven wrong. And I believe that I am better for her than her boyfriend will ever be, quite a monumental statement, but I have the balls to say it. Currently, neither has happenned and hence I am proceeding as planned.

Previous Mistakes:
I am a nice guy( I have references!) and that screwed me over. Previously, I would do anything for Ay08 and she took me for granted. Don't get me wrong, Ay08 is the nicest girl that I've ever met, however, I've pampered her a bit too much and my value of appreciation is not justified. Starting from now, I'll spend less time her, I'll spend more time with my friends and girlfriends( we'll get into this next time). It's not about the quantity, it's about the quality.

I was too jealous. Ay08 loves the attention of fellow guys, and hence spending time with her along with the other 'guys' elicits jealousy on my end. Jealous people aren't cool. Ay08s' boyfriend is never jealous( or at least he didn't show it) and that makes him cool in her eyes. To circumvent this, I just shouldn't spend time with her when she is the only girl in the group. What I don't see wouldn't make me feel jealous. Simple.

Objective:
To make Ay08 realizes that she loves me. I know her better than she does, trust me....

The Plan:
The plan is to make Ay08 remembers me, then I would go missing like the wind. I'll only contact her at random intervals which will leave her thinking, "WTF is this guy doing?". She knows that I love her, and now I want to make her doubt that fact. In order to achieve this, I'll pull off a routine called " How I Wish You Were Here" routine.

This shall increase her missing me, and she will look forward coming back. Hence, knowing Ay08, if she is restless , she would complain a lot. She used to complain to me, but if I am not around, she would complain to her boyfriend, and knowing the maturity level of her boyfriend, he might not be able to console her as well as I do , hence she would feel dissatisfied.

I am not gonna say that she is going to leave her boyfriend over this, as Ay08 wouldn't do that. That is not my objective for now. We need to take one step at a time. It's like a domino effect, at crunch time, all the pieces would come together, and it's time to strike. Now is not the time to strike, now is the setting up period.

Conclusion:
I love Ay08. A lot. And I intend to make her my wife. My intentions are pure, it's just that my methods aren't that sound. But keep in mind, I didn't put down her boyfriend, I am just trying to show her that I am a more viable option compared to her boyfriend. And who knows what the future holds for us, but as for now, at this moment, this is what I want to do. I am no schemer, and I don't really have a solid plan, but as things move along, I'll adapt and try to get as close as possible to the desired outcome which is time varying in nature. It's a miracle if I can get her to be my wife, but a miracle is called a miracle because it never happens.