People say that before you die, your whole life flashes right before your very eyes and you'll remember how it all began. I guess this also applies to relationships. Before it ends, you'll think about the beginning.

I slammed the door behind me, but to my dismay, it is not shut. How typical of my apartment door, it can never be shut properly. So, I did what any upstanding young gentleman did, I kicked it. As I kicked it, I slipped on the front step and fell down. Luckily, I did not sustain any serious injuries.
"Bloody snow, makes everything slippery."

As usual I was blaming something else for my shortcomings, in this case it was the snow. I looked around and the sight was truely breathtaking. Everywhere I look there is snow. Magnificent sight. And it struck me. Where I am sitting right now, is the place where it all started.

We just got back from dinner like usual, and I sat outside on the front step.
"Jack, aren't you coming in? It's pretty cold."
"I'll be right there in a sec. I love to just sit here for a while, you know?"
She then came by and sat beside me.
"So, what do you do while you are sitting here? Reminiscing? "
"Nope, I do nothing."

I looked at her, she put on her puzzled and confused look. My heart starts to beat faster and faster like the drums on Expert Mode in Rock Band 2. She looked so beautiful that night. And in the period of knowing her for a couple of months, she's been absolutely nice to me. At that particular moment, I did something I should not have done. I caved in to my emotions. At that time, I thought to myself, this is the person that I was looking for in my entire life.

So, I grabbed her hand, and I stroke it gently. She looked surprised but she reciprocated. I was high as a kite back then. Happier than a junky who just got his fix. This is it I thought. Little did I know, that this will lead to my demise.

I was awaken back to the harsh cold reality by a phone call.
"Hey Ay08, wazz up?"
Stay calm Jack, be cool. You've undergone a month of intensive training just for moments like these.
"Would you like.... to join us for a snowball fight?" she said it hesitantly. There's like a weight in her sentence that was anchoring her down
"Naaa, I'll pass...I need to go to college today. Thanks away."

We ended our conversation there. Cold just like the weather. I guess this is the way it should be, the best course of action to take. I got up from the steps and began walking to college. And while I was walking, I thought to myself how it ended, or how it is going to end.

I guess it is true what they say, before your relationship is completely destroyed, you'll think about how it all started. Oh yah, when I say 'they' I meant movies.

I woke up by the sweet screaming of misery, just like any other day. So swift and precise, with the absence of pain. I looked at that time and started panicking.
"Damn, it's 11, my sup will annihilate my ass."

I ran around like a headless chicken, getting ready of course. In the midst of chaos, I felt a shivering cold. I looked out of the window... and to my delight, there lies a mountain of snow. I was giddy like a fat kid who just got his ice cream fix. I got ready, and ran to the kitchen faster than Bolt.

The sight of a pine(-ish?) tree covered with snow is truly to behold. Such a beauty that will never escape the eyes of any mortal, be it blind or not. I made myself a gigantic cup of coffee. Sipping coffee while admiring such an alluring sight gives me calmness. The calmness that I need and crave. However, to my dismay, I was broken from the enchantment of the stoic trance by the hard cold gnaw of reality.
"Damn, I still need to go to college...or maybe not."

I rushed to my room and checked my email. To my delight...
"Sorry guys, but meeting is canceled due to heavy snow- Sup at 8.32 am."

I was ecstatic. As I was about run into the thick beautiful cold snow , I overheard a voice that caught my ears in the lounge. Out of curiosity, I hailed my steps and went investigating ignoring the phrase, "Curiosity kills the cat". This cat, I believe, is die hard.

As I walked into the lounge, the peculiar voice gets more distinctive. Up until one point,I realized...
"It's Ay08's voice. She's back?"

And flashes of pain started to come back to me. I can feel the stunning visceral experience previously, started melting away, replaced by the throbbing of a bleeding heart. Grotesquely hideous and mangled. Despite all this, I turned to her and said,
"Welcome back Ay08."

And gave her one of my forced fake smile. She looked up to me and smiled back. And I am too familiar with that smile... a synthetic one, just like mine. Trying to break eye contact , I looked outside the window. The snow is getting heavier. I was caught up with the sight of heaps of snow, so white and pure, untainted by any impurities.

I took a glance at Ay08, well, a secret glance that is. There she was, wearing all white, with her white ear phones. My eyes were fixated on her. I could not look away. After a couple of minutes, she realized my sharp stare. Given the history between us, she got a bit hostile.
"What are you looking at Jack? Did I gain weight?"
I wanted to say, "Nothing, and you look fine." You know just like a casual friend. Instead...
"The snow."
And I kept staring at her.
No one told me it is going to be this difficult.