Life is chaotic. It cannot be defined through neither equations nor statistics. Sure, we can plan a memorable event but normally, the most memorable ones are unplanned for. In the midst of all this chaos that life brings us, emerging from its ashes like a rising phoenix is love. From the chaos emerges a deterministic emotion called love.

We both just stared at each other as if time was frozen. For a split second, I could sense strong emotion emitting from her. At that moment, all I can think about was to kiss her . As I moved in for the kiss, I was surprised that she began closing her eyes, expecting it. However, I chickened out at the last moment. I am not entirely sure why I did that, sometimes I tend to amaze everyone including myself.

I got up from the bed. She looked disappointed, and I do not blame her. In order to just blatantly brush this incident aside, I started to focus on the uncarried boxes.
"Err...I think we should take this down now," I said blushingly.
She got up from the bed and pick a box while I picked another one.
"Hey, Ay08, this is kind of light. Are you sure we did not leave anything behind?"
Suddenly, she rushed to the side of the bed and pulled out a plastic bag. I can barely make out it's contents.
"That's it?"
She nodded. She gave me the plastic bag and I carried it along with the box.
We took a last look at the room, shut the door and went down the steps.

Same as the way up, the way down, is again, full of silence. In order to lighten the mood, I started building random conversation.
"So, what's in this plastic bag anyway? It is sure is very light."
"Oh, it's nothing."
"I bet you have some naughty stuffs in here, don't you?"
"Noo...and eeww, you pervert."
While we were talking, the plastic bag accidentally fell over and the contents were exposed all over the steps. I was shocked and I can see that Ay08 was feeling shy.

"You...you kept this?"
Ay08 just stayed quiet.
I picked up the dried withered flowers. Apparently, Ay08 has a whole bunch of them.
"Are these all mine? Is that the first flower that I gave you?"
She kept quiet.
"Why....why would you still keep these?"
She bent down and started to clear up the mess. I sat down and helped her.
"Because Jack...I.."

Now it was my turn to be quiet. I can sense that there was a huge stress on Ay08's vocal chords that caused her voice to be shaky. She seems to be trembling a little bit. Clearly, she was afraid. The thing that she was about to say must be really tough on her. Hence I pitied her, and being the altruist that I am, I rescued her from her distress.
"Because you love flowers so much, right?"I suggested it to her.
She just kept quiet and looked down.
I smiled at her then proceed to put the flowers back into the plastic. After clearing up, we continued walking down the steps.

I knew what she was going to say, but I could not let her say it. Not now at least. People say that you can never take back your words and I am afraid that she might make a huge mistake by uttering those words now. And at that moment, my love for Ay08 reignited.

Coincidentally, as we reached down the steps the taxi has already arrived. Without hesitation, I helped her moved all of her boxes into the taxi. After around 20 minutes of hardcore moving, she was ready to leave. She walked up to me, looked me directly in the eye, and with a shaky voice, said
"Promise you visit me sometime?"
I turned my back on her and walked back into the house, without saying a single word. I could see she was stunned and hurt. Ay08 then turned around and headed back into the taxi. As the taxi was about to leave, I shouted.
"Ay08, wait!"

She peered through the window and smiled at the sight of me carrying my knapsack. I then went over to the door and entered the taxi.
"You are leaving without me Ay08?"
"But Jack, I do not understand."
"You'll need help carrying those boxes to your apartment."
"How do you know that it is an apartment?"
I just smiled at Ay08. At first, she was taken aback for a second by my smile, but later on, she began smiling back. The look that she had on her face was priceless. So pure, and innocent. That was the day that I fell for her, again. Maybe things would end up differently this time? Fate can sometimes be so cruel.